I feel dirty

Why We Fight
(1h39m) via Cardhouse

It makes me sad.

Angry.

On so many levels.

People lying. Powerful people lying.

People being mislead. People dying.

And I feel complicit.

Not just because it makes me recognize the extent of the "military industrial complex" in this country that Eisenhower described in 1961.

But also because for the first time in my life, as an independent contractor, I'm actually working in the Defense industry.

I feel dirty.

And I wonder if I'll ever be able to walk away.